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My room seems empty. Switching from Windows to Mac.

April 2023. After all the changes I had made over the months, my huge room now seemed very empty. In one corner of the room was my work desk with a chair, underneath it my PC, on the table a professional microphone on a microphone arm, a cactus, mouse and keyboard, as well as a 27-inch screen with a screen lamp attached to the edge of the screen. At the window in the other corner, my mattress lay on the floor, where I slept, and next to it was a huge Monstera plant, its leaves hanging over the mattress. There was also a floor lamp here.

On the wall stood my clothes rack with two baskets - one for socks and underwear, the other for dirty laundry. On the shelf below were my pants, bedding, and a fabric bag with my coat and other clothes that I was not currently wearing. Next to the clothes rack was my toolbox, which I soon sold.

Given the few things in the room in relation to the size of the room, the thought came to me to move to a smaller room...

New Work Equipment

April 2023. Over the weekend, I visited my current favorite café, Kreipes Coffee Time, and took the time to thoroughly consider whether to get a 14- or 16-inch MacBook. During my lunch break, I tried calling Jule, but she didn't pick up. Nevertheless, I somehow felt good. When I messaged her this morning about making plans, she was already on her way to Hude. She was friendly towards me. I sincerely hoped we would get back together. After meeting her at karate last Thursday and doing the partner exercise together, I was once again in a phase where I was convinced that we were meant for each other. We could start anew – without Mara and Shinshu.

After the café, I visited the Saturn store at the train station to take a closer look at the 14- and 16-inch MacBooks. As I stood in front of the 16-inch MacBook, a scene played out in my head: I struggled to pull the large laptop out of my bag on the train. When I placed it on my lap, it was so wide that it even reached my seat neighbor's lap. That convinced me to choose a 14-inch MacBook.

I didn't plan to dip into my emergency savings for the MacBook purchase, although I felt a strong urge to acquire it as soon as possible to get rid of my bulky PC before moving. So, I decided to sell my cryptocurrencies at a loss of over fifty percent. The anticipation of the MacBook outweighed any guilt over the 50% loss.

With the proceeds, I bought my previously favored MacBook Pro M2 on eBay and invested the rest in highly risky knock-out certificates. I had read that one could make a lot of money with them and was especially interested in getting to know this financial product better. Somehow, at that moment, I wasn't even afraid of losing the remaining amount – probably because I had enough buffer for bad days.


Learning: My savings grant me the freedom to try out risky things with my investments and completely take away the fear of losing these investments.